Dear Adam, As a long time fan, I've only recently discovered your online "presence." This last week or so, I have been listening to interviews and looking up music from live shows that I never even knew existed. Its been wonderful.
That being said, I was saddened to hear the news today that Amy Winehouse died. When I heard the news, I thought of you and your struggles with fame and mental illness. It struck me that fame is such a catch22. Its something (in your line of work) that not only makes you successful, but (I would imagine) really wreaks havoc on your personal life. From what I have seen it seems to cause one to lose touch with the sense of self. Its like overnight you suddenly you go from being just a guy who writes music to some kind of god to other people and nothing could prepare you for that transition. The contradiction of what people tell you you are and what you see in the mirror and feel in your soul are so far apart. It must be so difficult to make that reconcile because you know in your heart you are still just "that guy" no matter what other people see.
The reason I am saying all of this is I just wanted to tell you that after listening to your interviews and reading your responses to fans questions, etc, (from my silly perspective) you really are one of the least "crazy" people I have come across. I guess I just wanted to encourage you.
The thing is, life is just difficult, period. It is difficult for every person that was ever born. The difference is that some people are just better at meeting life's difficulties head on. Its in meeting life's difficulties head on that we find our sense of accomplishment and self-esteem. The alternative (and the cause of much mental illness) is to go into denial and find layers of ways to avoid dealing with the actual pushing through those things that overwhelm us. (If that makes any sense)
In light of Amy's death, I wanted to say this: I see you as this person who has had bigger struggles than most and yet, every time, you get up and push back and make sense of things in your own way on your own terms. Not to make light of your struggles, I have to tell you, IMHO, you are one of the most rational people I have ever heard speak. Your commitment to authenticity is your path home when things get confusing. You have found your own ways to keep yourself tethered and you will never be insignificant. I know it isn't your goal, but so many people have benefited not only from your music, but from your example on how to be a good person.